Jason Madison Murray

Jason, I miss you.  Life is so odd now.  I'm still lost....but I'm starting to find my footing again.  The kids all miss you so very much.  I love you darlin!!!

                         I LOVE YOU JASON MURRAY!!!

Hey sweetie, I don't normally write on here anymore.  Wow, how life has changed.  All in all, I've emerged a tougher person.  Not by choice, by necessity.  Your children deserve everything life has to offer & I'll make sure they get it.  Honey, the bible says to forgive 70 times 7.  I'm working on it.  With His help I will get through it.  I have faith.  I love you sweetie.  Yesterday, today, tommorrow, & forever!!

Jace, you are the rock of our little family here in Doniphan.   The kids & I miss you more than ever!!!!!!!!!!!

Jason, Jason, Jason,  I'm so excited for Ty.  With all his ear problems we had to sign him up for speech.  Remember when he was 3 and we took him to meet Mrs. Toni.  Your very first question was "Will Tyler still have to have speech in Jr. High?"  She told us that she wasn't doing her job if he was.  Well, guess what?  She has done an AWESOME job.  I can tell a huge difference in his words (most of his words).  Except for flooded & tree.  She said that's just the sweet sound of his words.   I had a meeting with her this morning.  She said he passed every test.  He won't have to have speech anymore.  But, she also said that she still wants us to come out to her house & visit with her, so she can keep up with him.  Mrs. Toni really loves Ty and for that I am very thankful.  I knew you would be so very proud.  We also went to his class & all the kids signed his cast.  You should have seen him.  He ate up all the attention.  Mrs. Kelli gave me his Alphabet book.  He does really good.  She told me to look at L first, it stood for Love.  Tyler drew a picture of me & you. (& somebody shooting an arrow)  Mrs. Kelli said that he told her a big story about the picture when we were at the river shooting arrows with his toy.  She said that he told her he loves his Daddy & Mommy best.  It's so nice of her to share that with me.  It's not fair that you won't be here for him.  You finally get your own boy, & then he doesn't have his Daddy.  Doesn't make any sense.

 

Anyway, I just wanted you to know!!  I prayed to God & asked him to tell you too.  I'm very proud of our boy, Tyler Blake Murray for the both of us.

                                         I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!

 

 

    This Mother's Day will be Mom's hardest Mother's day ever.  This whole entire month will be very hard for her.  Mother's Day, Jason's 33rd Birthday, & Jason's RN Pinning.  I'll be keeping Mom in my prayers constantly!!

Babe, God is really sending the rain down today.  Remember how the little creek down the road floods so bad.  Tyler was talking about it today.  He said every time it flooded (it's so cute to hear him say flooded) we took him down there to go exploring.  He says he's like Diego.  :)  (today)  He was talking about all the cool treasures you would help him find.  You always threw the biggest rocks in, and splashed him all over.  He says that was his favorite part, or maybe walking in the water in his rain boots.  He couldn't make up his mind.  He does love those boots.  Now he says it's cause Daddy wore boots sometimes.  We've spent a lot of quality time together lately.  He really is so much like you.  If I happen to look sad, he will ask me if I want a Daddy hug.  Those hugs are my link to you.  Thanks, babe.              I LOVE YOU!!!

 

Love you Jason

This is one of my favorite pictures.  Jason studied so very hard.  School is one of the most important things in his life.  He truely wanted to be a Registered Nurse and recently he had been talking about going on to become a Nurse Practioner.  He would have made it.  I have no doubt!!!  Jason's pinning and graduation is coming up this month.  Man, I sure wish he was here to accept it.  I'm very very proud of him.  As I know we all are.  Back to the picture.  It's taken in our bedroom, before he got his very own study room.  He sure loves his laptop.  He would lay in bed next to me at night with it & study or learn about the End Times.  I had found so many christian, inspiring web sites that he has been looking at.  The Cardinals hat he is wearing still smells like him a bit, and I find myself sleeping in one of his Cardinals shirts alot.  It makes me feel closer to him.  The towels are on the windows because Jason works so hard at night and sleeps during the day.  He likes it absolutely dark.  But, you know, the noise level never bothered him.  The kids could make all kinds of racket, he never noticed.  The kids used to argue over who got to wake Daddy up.  I had to make them take turns.  It really made them feel special.  Daddy would love on them for a few minutes before he got up.  Sometimes, I got to do it too.  Only if it was my turn.  :)  Jason, I will love & miss you for the rest of my life.  Then I'll be with

 

you again.