Jason Madison Murray

My best memory today is when Jason holds me.  I really miss his arms around me.  Even in my worst nightmares, I never imagined my heart could hurt so bad.  It seems like I miss the little things the most.  Like rubbing his hair in the morning while he fell asleep after he came home from a long shift, or as we said our prayers and went to sleep at night.  I miss the way he always had to be touching me to fall asleep.  I miss the way he blows his nose.  (One nostril at a time).  Man, I even miss the blasted snoring. 

 

My best memory after Jason moved to heaven is pretty silly.  He slept every Saturday morning at our best friends Kim & Mike Allen's house.  He always bragged about breakfast being on the table waiting for him when he woke up.  When I went over there the week after, his bed still smelled like him.  (no children had nightmares and peed in that bed)  It was wonderful to lay in his essense.  After my cry, as I was leaving the room, Mike said "Hey Rose, Jason left a pair of dirty socks on the floor."  (That's why I can't ever find his socks,  I think Mike confiscates them.)  I actually picked up those socks and buried my face in them.  What has the world come to when I am actually wanting to smell Jason's dirty socks?!?!?!?

 

Jason, I know you are happy in Heaven, and I am so very happy for you,  but man this really sucks not to have you home.  I always tell you that you are my strength.  I don't feel very strong anymore.  Some things are going crazy.  I don't know how to deal with it.   I'm just going to do what you always say.  Give it to the Lord, He'll take care of it.  Please send me answers from Heaven.

 

I love you man,

Rose

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In loving memory of my dad jason murray who died jan.31,2007.

Dad,

      I love&miss u so much i will try 2 take care of our family the best way i can.You r more than a dad 2 me u r my best friend.I can never forget all the memories we had good & bad,most at the river or just playin' or makin' fun of mom lol,but anyway i miss all the fun we had.All the church just me&u on wen.but we were verey thankfull for mom for everything expeshily keppin' the kid's wile we went 2 church but we know u couldn't go to church with us on sun.but it was for a good reason,u were takin' care of all of us.I am trying my verey best to support us i promise i will go to college.And do my best to take care of us i love u and allways will see u in a little wile buy dad or my boat captin.

Like Clarissa said, there are so many memories, we could fill many pages.  But I wanted to say the memories our family will miss the most, are the countless, precious memories our families made together at the river.  The two "boat captains" and their boats full of family they carted up and down the river all summer long.  Our big breakfast's in the mornings and lazy afternoons together with our families in the sun.  It just won't be the same.  We will miss you snoring and rocking the cabin.  So this is a memory we all decided we would refuse to let go.  This summer in your honor we will be planting a tree and the kids are going to make a memorial print stone for you so you will be with us always.  Not just in our thoughts and memories but a physical presence in our lives for us to nurture and watch grow.  We love you and miss you Jason.

                  Mike, Kim & Zack                                                                         

Wow who could forget you and John calling me Crapusta! I hated that but I will forever remember it! And remember the time I broke the steps that you and dad worked so hard to build LOL you had to go and fix it and you wasn't even mad! Boy did i feel fat! lmao I wish that you would have been able to come to virginia this summer like planned Jason you would have loved it! It just doesn't seem right to say that your gone but we all will keep living for you! I have so many memories but would take up this whole page so i will just keep it like this for a little while!! We love you Jason Murray!!!

 

                                        Bobby, Clarissa and Jaden