Jason Madison Murray

Sweetie, this isn't really a condolence or a memory.  I just miss you.  Honey, I wish I could talk with you and tell you that within all of this craziness, I have truely realized how awesome some of your friends are.  They were cool before, but there are some that have had my back unconditionally.  Jason, you chose friends well.  They really love you.  And the stories.  Your friends have told me some of the neatest stories.  I know I am blessed to have you as MY good old boy, but now I know just how much you shared your gift of listening  with everyone.  You have a great ear.  You would listen, simply listen and never judge.  I know you really worried about your friends when they had problems.  (Now, Jason didn't gossip, but we would ask me to pray with him.)  Honey, I don't think you ever realized how much people appreciated you.  Just knowing they could confide in you, like we did with each other.  I'm really blessed that we were so close.  I miss my sounding board too.  Your friends at work & school are great. It makes me feel good that some live here in Doniphan.  I have no doubt they care about us and would be here in a hearbeat.  I honestly think they would do anything  for any one of our children.  Like I said before you really did choose these friends well.  It's amazing to see how you are still blessing us from Heaven.

I Love You Murray!!!!!

I know there doesnt seem to be anything happy about this one, But Rose you had the love of a good man and always will have it, Hang on to that, and how you know how he felt for you, dont ever let that be taken , ever. You are in my thoughts and prayers Love ya bunches, Christie

Baby, life does truly pass by so very quickly.  Jason, I love you so much.  I'm so thankful you are MY husband.  You were and are truly MY angel, and every day for the past eleven years you have treated me like an angel.  I have no doubt that you love me.

 

I love & miss you sweetie,

 

Rose

 

 

Sweetie, I really miss you.  It’s really hard going it alone.  (This was never part of the plan).  Especially with the kids sick.  You always knew the perfect thing to do.  They aren't supposed to get sick or hurt unless you are home.  Remember, IT’S A RULE.  Everything is chaotic here.  Sometimes I don't know if they are upset because they are so sick or overwhelmed with grief.  They all miss you so much.  Miranda still cries many times a day. Rachael’s Grandpa moved to heaven too (you probably already know that) and they have been talking about it a lot.  She is very sad.  What do I say to make it better for her?  Tyler is having his very own special issues.  I have no clue what to do about him. 

This may sound self-centered, but dog gone it I'm really worried about them.  You gave the best answers to all of their questions.  Miranda said that I sounded like you the other day when I had to get on to Kyle.  She so kindly reminded me that we always have Blackie. (Lol)  Honey, I’m trying to follow the same guidelines we've had set out for years.  It’s a good thing you were always so bold about your views on child rearing. 

You always say that I need to toughen up, well, honey, I'm toughening up.  Not that I’ve had any options.  Everything has changed so much in the last 36 days.  I try to tell the kids that the only difference is that Daddy moved to Heaven, but honestly, everything has changed.  Every aspect of our present and our future has changed.  And I’m still stuck in January 31.  I just can’t see any future without you in there.    My heart will always belong to you Jason.  I am so thankful for the countless hours of conversation we shared talking about everything.  I’m honestly trying to view everything the way that you did.  It’s really hard because nothing is the same as 37 days ago.  If you were here, (I sure wish you were) I think you would be stunned at the changes in everything.  The kids have changed, our family has changed, and our hearts are now broken.  The only thing that hasn’t changed is the amount of love we have for you.  Like the kids say “All the way to God’s chimney, and back”.  Which I say is “Immeasurable!!!!”  

My constant prayer is for God to grant me the grace to have a forgiving heart like you have. We have learned so much about our faith together.  I will forever be grateful.   

Honey, I’ve still got the kids’ back just like I’ve always had yours.  They are all I have left of you.  I pray for their protection every day.  We are blessed that you are watching over us always.

 

I love you so very very  much!!

 

Thanks so much for including me in his life story, it meant alot to me as do you and the kids, I am thankful that Jason had a way of bringing people together and one day we will see his smiling face again, Hugs and Prayers, Christie

Where do I begin? Jason was someone that I looked up to alot and Rose I thought that when I first met you that you were awsome and the day Jason married you that was the frist thing that I told you!! I was glad Jason married you! Even though i was young we connected in so many ways! Over the years our families have gotten unbelieveable close and Jason and I's relationship was the same way I just wish he was still here for me to share with him all the things that bobby and I have accomplished! I know how proud of Bobby he was and how much he loved the ship and I wish that he would have been able to come this summer and walk on that very ship! We where so excited to show it to him I know he would have loved it! I don't think alot of people understand how truely close we where and it hurts my heart so much that he isn't here! And wow does it sound weird to say that! Jason is a great role model for alot or people and i don't think he realized how important he was! It makes me sad to know that i didn't get to say goodbye that i was 1,000 miles away and wasn't able to spend all that time with him that i wanted to but i know he understands why! Rose i will be here for you and those kids no matter what and i love you very much and you know i love Kyle, Marissa, Miranda and Ty like they are my own! You know that if you ever need me to call! I wish i could say i would be there in a second but i can't and that really sucks! I also wish that Jason could be here to see my daughter grow up but i will make sure that she knew who you where and how awesome of a person you was! May you rest in Heaven and i pray someday i will see you again!! I love you Jason Murray and Miss You So Very Much!!

                                                          Clarissa

I only knew Jason for a short time.  I am so thankful for his friendship.  He is truly one of kind whose heart is bigger than all outdoors.  He will be deeply missed.

Rose,  I am so sorry you have to go thru all you are going thru, stay true to yourself and the children.. God doesn t  put anything on our plate we can t handle.. we don t have to like it but we have to deal the things in front of us...You have good friends.. my sister and brother in law are two of them, Vicky and Kevin  love you more than you will ever know, thats what we have  friends,  family, for us ,  to lean on  is others love.. Thanks for letting me share my thoughts.. you and yours  are in my prayers..    Jo Mathews